It started casually. Eyes locked. A handshake. Hellos. But then they looked down and noticed his right middle fingernail fluttering away as the wind blew by. Oh, I'm sorry, he said as he hurriedly withdrew his hand, but stopped when he saw her eyelashes from her left eye whisk away like dandelion seeds on the very same wind. After sharing an embarrassed chuckle, they progressed.
And then one week and a late night bottle of merlot later, the morning.
Hey. Hey. Words she heard as he pulled her from slumber.
Huh. What?
I'm missing some teeth he said. She rubbed her eyes and looked and yes, indeed, he was missing a canine, a molar, and an inc
VII
Not in the middle of the night when you're crumbling. Do it in the day. An unassuming day with nothing amiss and you'll call not because you miss me but because you've just missed the bus that passed you by. But don't request a ride. I've done enough by picking up my phone in the middle of physics.
VI
When you've burnt the brownie batch, and I'll buzz right on over with boxes of freshly baked baklava (I've never tried baklava before). Or when you're gliding through the grocery store and find there's a special on strawberry feta salads (I've never tried strawberry feta salad before).
V
If your cat catches a canary. Not when she's stru
Those children over at that table don't know how good they have it, I wistfully thought over my plate of pork-fried rice. My family and I were out celebrating my brother's birthday, and the group of six or so kids was seated two tables down from us. There, they divided themselves into smaller clusters so they could share the limited number of mommy-and-daddy's iPhones as they took turns playing Angry Birds, or Fruit Ninja, or whatever the popular game is these days.
I was reminded of the countless times my cousins and I used to do the same thing when our families went out to dinner (except instead of Apple products, we had Gameboy Colors.) T
Victoria spotted the odd mask in the window of Lee's Consignment Shop as she strutted down the sidewalk. She was in the middle of a heels-snapping, bag-swinging, hair-flipping, phone conversation with her client when she froze, mid stride, transfixed by the face that peered at her among the display of watches, old guitars, and dusty paintings.
Caught in the mask's trance, Victoria hastily and quite rudely ended her call, yanked the shop door open and gasped, "I need to see that mask in the window." She paused. "Please." Mr. Lee blinked and nodded uncertainly as he adjusted his glasses and shuffled over to the display to retrieve the item. "T
CUT TO:
INT. SAM'S OFFICE EARLY AFTERNOON
SAM sits at his desk, blankly staring at his computer monitor. He holds a pen in his hands and a legal pad sits in front of him before the computer, but he doesn't move. He sits, and stares.
We hear the ticking of a clock. We see the vacancy in Sam's eyes. The ticking escalates into mini booms of foreboding, until Sam's friend CHUCK appears in the doorway.
CHUCK
Hey Sam whoa, dude,
you look like ass.
SAM
Tired, is all.
CHUCK
You're always tired, man.
Haven't you seen someone
about it yet?
SAM
Of course I have. But nothing
helps, nothing works.
CHUCK
He stood in line, tapping his foot anxiously, looking at his watch, checking his teeth in the reflection of his cell phone. He hated waiting in line, and on top of that, he was running late. He contemplated skipping his usual morning coffee when he suddenly felt a tap on his shoulder and heard a voice behind him.
"Hey," the voice said cautiously. A female's, he detected. He turned around to face this person, and her curious expression lit up in recognition when he saw her.
"Wow, I knew it was you! I mean, I walked in and saw this guy standing here and I thought to myself 'no way, it couldn't be, could it?' And sure enough, it is!" she gaspe
I can gaze into these windows
and I'm met with the curious expressions of ghosts,
shadows of our former selves
and though I'm gripped with this feeling that
I know these faces,
Something whispers in my ear
they are not you
and you are not them.
Are these windows mounted in walls
so high
and so thick
that I'll never be able to break them?
I feel these ghosts in the windows are memories
or maybe they're parts of old souls
tired, worn, broken --
but that Thing
beckons me away from the glass
and now I can detect its foul breath
raspy voice
telling me to
Wake.
Up.
I have been summoned by the daybreak
and I stumble thro
mocked, said the mockingbird,
is what you feel, no?
flitting above my desk she flips
forward pages and reveals.
does it seem ironic?
asked she.
indeed it does,
said I.
cruelly so
that your month has
your color?
correct!
was the shrill.
I don't understand,
wailed I.
but she stood silently.
eyes, infinitely dark, stared.
said she,
no one does.
it's a tricky sticky subject,
this.
a sigh
as I opened the window to set her free.
but still she remains
perched on my desk
mocking me.
You left cigarette burns
across my bed sheets
pock marked holes
scabs
but they don't make sleeping any warmer.
There was a warm breeze
that blew through my hair
until the clouds came in
and cast shadows
cold biting winds
that took down my house.
They say don't burn your bridges
but it seems as if I never had bridges to begin with
and they were only dreams.
It was a cool day when I came to
and a warm night when you left
connections that trace the leaves which
scatter across my front door step
as I walked inside and didn't want
to come out.
A ghost.
I share no words but with one
who listens patiently and knows how to pr
We were going somewhere. My brother and sister, mom, dad, me, we were driving somewhere.
The highway we were driving on was rather calm and undisturbed, passing mile after mile of wide, open fields of tall, golden grass.
Wait, I dont know where we are, dad said, which was unusual. He has never admitted to being lost in terms of direction and navigation. Yeah, I think were lost.
Youve got to be kidding me, said my mom.
I see someone up ahead . . . hang on, Im gonna pull over and ask, dad observes.
We took a right turn and started going down a smaller road, and soon we
It started casually. Eyes locked. A handshake. Hellos. But then they looked down and noticed his right middle fingernail fluttering away as the wind blew by. Oh, I'm sorry, he said as he hurriedly withdrew his hand, but stopped when he saw her eyelashes from her left eye whisk away like dandelion seeds on the very same wind. After sharing an embarrassed chuckle, they progressed.
And then one week and a late night bottle of merlot later, the morning.
Hey. Hey. Words she heard as he pulled her from slumber.
Huh. What?
I'm missing some teeth he said. She rubbed her eyes and looked and yes, indeed, he was missing a canine, a molar, and an inc
VII
Not in the middle of the night when you're crumbling. Do it in the day. An unassuming day with nothing amiss and you'll call not because you miss me but because you've just missed the bus that passed you by. But don't request a ride. I've done enough by picking up my phone in the middle of physics.
VI
When you've burnt the brownie batch, and I'll buzz right on over with boxes of freshly baked baklava (I've never tried baklava before). Or when you're gliding through the grocery store and find there's a special on strawberry feta salads (I've never tried strawberry feta salad before).
V
If your cat catches a canary. Not when she's stru
Those children over at that table don't know how good they have it, I wistfully thought over my plate of pork-fried rice. My family and I were out celebrating my brother's birthday, and the group of six or so kids was seated two tables down from us. There, they divided themselves into smaller clusters so they could share the limited number of mommy-and-daddy's iPhones as they took turns playing Angry Birds, or Fruit Ninja, or whatever the popular game is these days.
I was reminded of the countless times my cousins and I used to do the same thing when our families went out to dinner (except instead of Apple products, we had Gameboy Colors.) T
Victoria spotted the odd mask in the window of Lee's Consignment Shop as she strutted down the sidewalk. She was in the middle of a heels-snapping, bag-swinging, hair-flipping, phone conversation with her client when she froze, mid stride, transfixed by the face that peered at her among the display of watches, old guitars, and dusty paintings.
Caught in the mask's trance, Victoria hastily and quite rudely ended her call, yanked the shop door open and gasped, "I need to see that mask in the window." She paused. "Please." Mr. Lee blinked and nodded uncertainly as he adjusted his glasses and shuffled over to the display to retrieve the item. "T
CUT TO:
INT. SAM'S OFFICE EARLY AFTERNOON
SAM sits at his desk, blankly staring at his computer monitor. He holds a pen in his hands and a legal pad sits in front of him before the computer, but he doesn't move. He sits, and stares.
We hear the ticking of a clock. We see the vacancy in Sam's eyes. The ticking escalates into mini booms of foreboding, until Sam's friend CHUCK appears in the doorway.
CHUCK
Hey Sam whoa, dude,
you look like ass.
SAM
Tired, is all.
CHUCK
You're always tired, man.
Haven't you seen someone
about it yet?
SAM
Of course I have. But nothing
helps, nothing works.
CHUCK
He stood in line, tapping his foot anxiously, looking at his watch, checking his teeth in the reflection of his cell phone. He hated waiting in line, and on top of that, he was running late. He contemplated skipping his usual morning coffee when he suddenly felt a tap on his shoulder and heard a voice behind him.
"Hey," the voice said cautiously. A female's, he detected. He turned around to face this person, and her curious expression lit up in recognition when he saw her.
"Wow, I knew it was you! I mean, I walked in and saw this guy standing here and I thought to myself 'no way, it couldn't be, could it?' And sure enough, it is!" she gaspe
I can gaze into these windows
and I'm met with the curious expressions of ghosts,
shadows of our former selves
and though I'm gripped with this feeling that
I know these faces,
Something whispers in my ear
they are not you
and you are not them.
Are these windows mounted in walls
so high
and so thick
that I'll never be able to break them?
I feel these ghosts in the windows are memories
or maybe they're parts of old souls
tired, worn, broken --
but that Thing
beckons me away from the glass
and now I can detect its foul breath
raspy voice
telling me to
Wake.
Up.
I have been summoned by the daybreak
and I stumble thro
mocked, said the mockingbird,
is what you feel, no?
flitting above my desk she flips
forward pages and reveals.
does it seem ironic?
asked she.
indeed it does,
said I.
cruelly so
that your month has
your color?
correct!
was the shrill.
I don't understand,
wailed I.
but she stood silently.
eyes, infinitely dark, stared.
said she,
no one does.
it's a tricky sticky subject,
this.
a sigh
as I opened the window to set her free.
but still she remains
perched on my desk
mocking me.
You left cigarette burns
across my bed sheets
pock marked holes
scabs
but they don't make sleeping any warmer.
There was a warm breeze
that blew through my hair
until the clouds came in
and cast shadows
cold biting winds
that took down my house.
They say don't burn your bridges
but it seems as if I never had bridges to begin with
and they were only dreams.
It was a cool day when I came to
and a warm night when you left
connections that trace the leaves which
scatter across my front door step
as I walked inside and didn't want
to come out.
A ghost.
I share no words but with one
who listens patiently and knows how to pr
We were going somewhere. My brother and sister, mom, dad, me, we were driving somewhere.
The highway we were driving on was rather calm and undisturbed, passing mile after mile of wide, open fields of tall, golden grass.
Wait, I dont know where we are, dad said, which was unusual. He has never admitted to being lost in terms of direction and navigation. Yeah, I think were lost.
Youve got to be kidding me, said my mom.
I see someone up ahead . . . hang on, Im gonna pull over and ask, dad observes.
We took a right turn and started going down a smaller road, and soon we
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I'm coming out: I'm straight
Mom? Mum? Can I talk to you?
My voice quivered. Both of them looked up at me. Moms head was in Mums lap. Mum was slowly stroking her forehead, leaning down to kiss her forehead while still staring at me intently. A satanic bible was placed in Mums lap, the thin, withered pages torn in a few places from continued reading. You know you can talk to us about anything, Mom said, smiling, sitting up a bit straighter. She leaned over to kiss Mum, who kissed her back. I took a seat on the couch and pulled my knees up to my chin, staring down at my cuticles. Even for a guy, they were pretty nasty.
I took
against my chest you make a soft semi-colon as my hips
press into yours and you yield like damp paper
and against my chest the pulse of us
a filament-hum in a sixty-watt bulb
and my chin against your neck, an impromptu bookstop
and your cheek runs against
my stubble and it is an embossed leather cover
and our noses meet
beads of sweat on my brow roll against yours and we are
a printing press
until our dilated eyes meet like magnifying glasses
and our lips touch like the curves of an
I stopped writing when I turned 20
degrees Celsius, and the acid
evaporated from my veins.
No more stormy seas or dreams that
I can feel the erythrocytes crashing
against my eyelids and fistsnow
My heartbeat is like the hollow
canals of Venice drowning in air,
drains overflowing into drains,
Like abandoned gardens hanging
between bricked up dreams, built
six stories higher than I would ever need.
Beatles aside, this new Birthday announcement system dA has implemented is really. annoying. I'm sorry, it's not that I don't care you were born, really, I'm glad you're alive on this earth doing what you do by contributing to this wonderful community of artists and writers etc. But I really don't find it necessary to know your birthday unless you are particularly special or important to me. It's not as if this dA announcement popping up in my message box will motivate me to drop ya a fancy "Happy Birthday!" wish/comment.
Here, I'll send you one telegraphically instead.
No? Didn't get it? Huh. Guess you just don't have the gift then.
IN O
It's eerie. I didn't come up with anything this year to write/play as a tribute to her.
Eerie...eerily disconcerting.
What does it mean. Am I finally starting to accept, "get over it," let go?
I'd almost forgotten it was today, February 3rd. I just remembered on Sunday.
I can't believe I nearly forgot this day. I can't believe I nearly forgot her.
When I woke up, the line from a song from the show RENT played through my head. "Times flies, time dies." The song is called "Glory," I believe.
Time flies.
It certainly does. It's hard to imagine it's been 3 years now.
We miss you, Ashleigh. We will never forget you.
April 22, 1988 - Febru
I KNEW this would happen.
Yet again, I produce scratch for NaNoWriMo.
I really don't know why I signed up again in the first place if I knew in the back of my mind I would most likely not produce anything.
I started, but I realize I quickly gave up. Why? Because I don't think I have the stamina and/or imagination to keep me going for a whole novel. (And of course there are these things called work and research papers and exams and whatnot.)
a NOVEL. yeesh. Not some 5 to 10 page short story, but a 100+ page NOVEL. baaaah.
Now I see why it takes writers a year (and more) to complete a novel. They get more respect from me now.
Someday, I w